Now I am alone. Kim and Jeff have left and I am sitting at my first campsite in Amicalola Falls State Park alone, getting myself prepped to start my walk of the AT. I am somewhat apprehensive, though I don't think apprehensive is the appropriate word. It's more like anxious and excited and ready to start and do this! Which has, for some reason, triggered my body to produce way too much adrenaline. So, I sit and ponder. And drank a beer to help with the adrenaline rush. I mean, it's not going to be an earth shattering thing I do, though it may be a life changing thing I do. But, I'm okay with life changing, it means that the world is my oyster, and I've adapted to it as it adapts to me.
I guess I'm never truly alone. There are people in the campsites all around me. I hear birds singing, the wind is rustling in the trees, so I guess I'm not truly alone. Though it seems like it because of the sociability aspect of everything. But that is not necessarily a bad thing. Being alone, I'm hoping, will help me center myself and listen to my own voice and the voice of, dare I say, God, in discerning what I am going to do in the future now that one journey in life has ended and another begun. Though I believe the purpose of the discernment is to determine what I am going to do when THIS journey ends. There are many different things that are running through my mind right now that, hopefully, by the end of this trip, I will have figured out. Or at least discerned a direction in which to move. But it's still early now, so there's a lot of time left to figure things out. Until then, hopefully the good Lord will look over my shoulder.
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